Going back to work full time while being a mother of twins
Trying to return to work full time is overwhelming.. How do mothers do it all the time? Wake up early, get the kids ready, get yourself ready, eat, try to bundle them up especially when it's freezing cold outside, drop them off to the sitter, then off to work we go. It's like running a marathon.. You never get to stop because if you do then you will never make it to the finish line.
Let me start by saying that I have been working and going to school since I have been 15 years old. After high school, was attending college, graduated with my Bachelors in 2005, then traveled to Italy and that motivated me to move to NYC to pursue my acting career/waitress/substitute-teacher experience. You have to earn a living while adding experience to my acting resume. Those 3.5 years living in NYC were an amazing experience that I would never forget. Moved back to RI to be close to my family, friends and now husband, who has been there for me more than 10 years supporting all I do. Worked full time, sometimes overtime... I was working but was not fulfilling my dreams that I did while in NYC so after 4 years of working as a caseworker, one of my friends told me about earning my Masters in Education while receiving a Grant. I applied, waited and got accepted. Commuted to and from Boston for a year, student taught in the morning, then school at night.. It was an intense year... School, work, planning a wedding, etc. The year of 2012 was intense.. There were many highs but there were a few lows.. One dark moment, sad, and intense that took my husband and I to recover for a while. Weeks later, we got married, it was a happy moment, a happy time with our loved ones. Our vacation was over and back to reality.. That dark moment was back on my mind, our minds.. How could we get over it? We tried again.. Yes.. Again and got lucky.. Months later we found out it was twins again.. 4 months later, found out it was a boy and a girl.. All these months I rested, worked part time to be able to care for my self and my bundles of joy. It was a great feeling being pregnant. God does miracles.. And we are truly grateful, truly in love with God's creation. After they were born, took 6 months off to be home with them, then went back to work part time. After 15 months of being home with them while working a few days a week, I applied for a full time teaching position. Received a call for an interview, went, got accepted and now just waiting for all my paperwork to process. So while waiting, I am getting anxious, getting nervous, reflecting on how do I leave my children to be able to return back to my career? These thoughts and the feeling of guilt is there, guilty of leaving them. However, I know they will be in good hands and in God's protection. I have worked hard all my life, going to school, studying, writing papers, commuting, etc. I deserve to be who I want to be professionally, emotionally and still try to be the best wife and mother that I can be. It's a matter of trying, like I always say, "if you don't try, you will never know". -D
Let me start by saying that I have been working and going to school since I have been 15 years old. After high school, was attending college, graduated with my Bachelors in 2005, then traveled to Italy and that motivated me to move to NYC to pursue my acting career/waitress/substitute-teacher experience. You have to earn a living while adding experience to my acting resume. Those 3.5 years living in NYC were an amazing experience that I would never forget. Moved back to RI to be close to my family, friends and now husband, who has been there for me more than 10 years supporting all I do. Worked full time, sometimes overtime... I was working but was not fulfilling my dreams that I did while in NYC so after 4 years of working as a caseworker, one of my friends told me about earning my Masters in Education while receiving a Grant. I applied, waited and got accepted. Commuted to and from Boston for a year, student taught in the morning, then school at night.. It was an intense year... School, work, planning a wedding, etc. The year of 2012 was intense.. There were many highs but there were a few lows.. One dark moment, sad, and intense that took my husband and I to recover for a while. Weeks later, we got married, it was a happy moment, a happy time with our loved ones. Our vacation was over and back to reality.. That dark moment was back on my mind, our minds.. How could we get over it? We tried again.. Yes.. Again and got lucky.. Months later we found out it was twins again.. 4 months later, found out it was a boy and a girl.. All these months I rested, worked part time to be able to care for my self and my bundles of joy. It was a great feeling being pregnant. God does miracles.. And we are truly grateful, truly in love with God's creation. After they were born, took 6 months off to be home with them, then went back to work part time. After 15 months of being home with them while working a few days a week, I applied for a full time teaching position. Received a call for an interview, went, got accepted and now just waiting for all my paperwork to process. So while waiting, I am getting anxious, getting nervous, reflecting on how do I leave my children to be able to return back to my career? These thoughts and the feeling of guilt is there, guilty of leaving them. However, I know they will be in good hands and in God's protection. I have worked hard all my life, going to school, studying, writing papers, commuting, etc. I deserve to be who I want to be professionally, emotionally and still try to be the best wife and mother that I can be. It's a matter of trying, like I always say, "if you don't try, you will never know". -D