The creative flow
The dance shoes are waiting
The rhythm to the beat is on pause
My moves, my flow
The open mic
The writing to the thoughts
The poems, the plays, the ideas
On pause
The wings were broken
Taken away
Discharged
Locked in a cage
Trying to escape
But instead I was pouring
Pouring onto others
Pouring my energy, my heart, my all
To everyone else
At times I was on empty and I still had to recharge
Recharge to service others
To pour onto others
To clap, to motivate, to educate, to inspire, to lift
To help, to dedicate, to carry, to unpack the truth
All of that while feeling drained
Exhausted, sucked into lies
Into stories being told by the antagonist
But went on with the day because my heart was to give, to listen, to understand, to support, to guide
That I almost forgot to listen to myself
I forgot how to say no
I forgot how to rest
I forgot how to forgive myself
I forgot how to dance
I forgot how to feel free, to be free
To feel the rhythm
The beats, the drum, the sound of the guitar
The writings became shorter
At times it felt in a rush
I had to move on to the next thing on the agenda
To pour, to give, to listen, to support, to guide
To hold but then I realized that at times
We have to let go
Let go in order to move on
In order to grow
In order to become better
Better about self
Still I rise
I started to say no
I started not to attend
I started to take a pause
But this time I started to pause for peace
So here I am
Listening to the birds sing
Appreciating nature
The wind is blowing
While my creative writing is flowing
Realizing that I need to pour back to myself
Bring back those dancing shoes
With the sound of the drum, the hop to the beat
The pages on that journal
The ink to the writing
The need to express
The under appreciated
That will never be replicated
Or duplicated
I am me
Self care and giving time to myself
Is back on the agenda
Back in my calendar
Back to pouring back to myself
To feel free and at peace
To feel and know that like every season
There is a reason
A reason to be you
Watched by my ancestors
To dance, to write, to express
To continue to speak the truth
I feel the creativity flowing
Porque yo tengo flow
Y flow soy yo
Yo se quien yo soy